This is the outfit I wore when my heart broke just a little.
It may not seem like a huge deal, but yesterday I sent my oldest child off to first grade. I’ve been through first days before, having sent her to two years of pre-school, and kindergarten last year, but this year is different. This year she’ll go to school all day long, and I’m already missing the time we’ve had together.
Like all three of my kids, my oldest daughter is my precious gift from God, sent to my husband and I after an ectopic pregnancy, a miscarriage, and a long period of time when we wondered if we’d ever be able to have biological children.
This gift arrived after a difficult pregnancy, and an even more traumatic birth, where we nearly lost her moments after having met her.
I’ve enjoyed unwrapping my gift over the years, discovering new things about her each day, and loving all that I know about her – her sunny personality, big imagination, intelligence, and sweet smile.
I read something beautiful awhile back on Casey Wiegand’s blog, about parenting with an open hand, and it’s what getting me through this time. I’ve been given these gifts to care for, but ultimately they are not mine – I’m raising them up to let them go. I must say, it’s a little easier to give them up when I know that’s God has a better hold on my children than I ever could.
Dress – JCrew, sweater tights – DKNY, shoes – Star Ling
Do you have kids in school? Is it hard for you to send them off?
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