Wild About You

August 30, 2013

Being Braver

August 29, 2013
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This post just may be one of the bravest I’ve written.

Even more than when I posted a pic of myself in a bikini.

I’ve shared my fertility struggles, and my grief.

So why does this post stand out to me?

Here’s the thing… I’m a mostly confident person. It’s taken me a long time to get to the point where I can honestly say that, after dealing with body issues for many of my younger years.

But still the person I think I am, and the person I see in the mirror do not always match up.

I picture myself as a youthful woman, fresh out of college, and able to fit right in with any sitcom character on tv, running around NYC without a care in the world.

But the truth is, I’m a 35 year old soccer mom. I drive a mini van. I can still kick it on the dance floor, but my hemlines have gotten a bit longer and my (self-imposed) curfew a little earlier. It’s been awhile since I’ve been carded.

My son grabbed my camera the other day, and got an extreme close up of me. If you want an honest assessment of the state of your skin, take a razor sharp lens and zoom right on in. I cringe when I see those lines.

And yet.

I’m happy I have them. Every one of them made their appearance there because I smile a lot. When I smile, I tend to do it with my whole face. And I have much to smile about.

I am blessed to have the love of family, a happy home, great friends, and so much more.

Though you can be sure I’ll still be applying that anti-wrinkle cream daily and nightly, I’ll also be trying hard to reconcile who I believe myself to be to that woman in my reflection. The years will continue to pass, and that’s ok.

Below, that extreme close up, with no re-touches. I’m owning the skin I’m in.

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12 comments

  1. I see a very pretty, kind, contented woman with sparkling eyes who is happy with her place in life. You are organized, have a game plan, and bring it to pass. You take very good care of yourself. You are a wonderful wife and mother. I’m proud that you are part of my family. I love you, Cate.

  2. Brave IS Beautiful!! Us women tend to be awfully hard on ourselves!! Those are laugh lines – not wrinkles – so you are blessed indeed! I am 51 years old and slathering as much anti-aging creams, unwrinkle pads, etc. on my face day and night (and night time is new to me – LOL). Our family, friends and husbands (if we have them) love us for who we are on the inside (that’s what we tell our kids & grandchildren growing up) so we should start believing this too!!

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